my new family

Got two smaller than palm sized turtles today from China-town . ^___^. One is named Crayon and the other I haven't decided yet. Tomorrow I am getting a phone too (finally) and going to buy Crayon and his bud some turtle food. Hopefully eating sushi for the first time in forever as well. I have high hopes that the day will be swell.

I really want to be skinny enough so that when I'm standing my thighs don't touch. That isn't unreasonable is it? Excuse my lack of fluidity and colloquial language (since I usually use this journal to hone my writing skills) but it's almost 4am and I don't feel like posting a pretty entry. Life has been dull after my return. I haven't really been able to pursue hanging out with anybody because of my lack of communication; though most people are malleable enough and willing to pick me up so I suppose that may just be an excuse of mine. Really though, I'm sick of talking to people who didn't give a shit about me 3 weeks ago and wouldn't give a shit about me if I was still in a relationship. I wonder why I'm socially awkward. I hate these people but I talk to them cause who else do I have ?

I think this quote is also applicable to my feelings in life as of lately.

“What I want is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who I need is somebody that will eat up all my free time, my ego, my attention. Somebody addicted to me. A mutual addiction.”

^^^^^^^ yes.
I'm sorry to say but at this point I don't need aloofness, games, waiting and people who definitely don't care.

You disgusting fucks.