that if someone is interested in you, you can almost immediately tell if you will be interested in them within the first five minutes of interaction? Of course, this is a culmination of attitude, looks, personality, stimuli response, maybe even gland secretion we don't pick up on consciously but STILL. You know when someone possesses the ability to breach the friend barrier and conversely, when they will always, no matter how well you get along or how 'perfect' they may later be compatibility wise...I repeat ALWAYS stay stagnant in the friend zone. I wonder why this is. People I choose to date aren't particularly attractive and I can readily admit when not blinded by love and affection that I have friends I'd never consider dating that are more appealing than my past boyfriends in terms of looks--yet still. It's some weird soupy mixture that's hard to pin point. With that being said, I realize how difficult it is to truly find somebody 'special' and have decided not to sit by recumbent and let them get away if I did. And someone came along in December who I found to be most likable and sweet. And yet, it's really confusing.
I miss the showy affection of my first relationship. The sappy profile pictures littered with each other that sometimes matched, the cute public messages that made some people gag, the simple act of holding hands on campus and everyone being able to identify us as a unit rather than individuals. I miss piggy backing through campus and rolling down grassy hills together, sitting on staller steps and looking at clouds while waving at people we knew that passed. I miss...a lot.
"Seeing someone" just isn't the same as being some body's girlfriend. Not even close.
Still, what right do I have to complain?
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