Generic Update?

So, I'm trying to just give a genuine look into my life thus far without dumb lyrics, quotes, and convoluted garble that I was prone to before.

I got an "industrial piercing" 2 days ago at a small tattoo parlor on Middle Country Road on the way home. I walked in and out within ten minutes and the whole process was very sporadic, very random, slightly painful, but felt ...good. Really good. I hardly ever have that sort of control in my life and the small privilege to make a decision without the worry of later tip-toeing around the repercussions was great; the piercing was indicative of gaining something I feel like I'm groping for each day. Meh. Dumb. I wish I could articulate those feelings better.

Also, I visited a psychic who talked mainly about my relationship and family life. It was interesting, a little generic, but refreshing in some way. And even though half of it seemed like some contrived bull shit, it made me want to be better too.. and anything that makes you feel like that can't be all that bad.

Today I weighed myself too. Almost 107 pounds and it's really depressing. I don't know why I've been gaining weight, but I need to stop. If I tell other people my apprehension, they scoff and think I'm being dumb since I know 107 is nowhere near 'obese,' so I can't. I really feel that I was at my happiest at 99 pounds though and that's where I want to be again. At that weight, every article of clothing looked great and I didn't dread looking in the mirror. I need to believe I can feel that again. Hmm. Anorexia? Just kidding. But seriously. I think it's about time that I went on a real workout regime. I just want to push forward with self-improvement.

gogogo fightiiiiing~~!!~!~! >:o