I wish I could care about something the way that everyone else seems to be able to. I wish so much that I could be passionate about something, that there was someone or anything at all that I could fully engross my whole being into rather than just pieces of myself. I don't have a favorite anything, really. I don't have strong opinions on any particular subject either and it is bothersome. I'm just a lethargic bum :x
Nothing really seems to effect me the way it should either but that is probably due to my lack of feeling toward subjects in the first place. People die, and I can't even care enough to cry. Everyone assumes that I'm just paralyzed with shock or that I'm being a trooper and bottling up my feelings but they aren't even there to begin with. :/ One can't cry about something one doesn't care about. Simmilarly, one can't be happy with presents or friends or people that one doesn't care about either.
I sound horrible.
Honestly though, I really just want to give my heart away to something without hesitation or regret. I've yet to find anything worthy of that. Hmm.
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