Ole Ole

I'm leaving soon niggas. Won't miss anyone though, to be honest. Well, maybe my family even though they have been really irritating and making life hard.

I am seeing Lisa and Kelly definitely tomorrow and then I am seeing Kim and Katherine on Thursday. The extent of the people I care to say 'goodbye' to. 6 weeks isn't really long though so saying goodbye is a bit superfluous. I really wish I saw Minerva but I didn't have a phone. On a hypocritical premise, I'm going to be irritated at Ryan from the library for not calling Minerva and forgetting we were even supposed to meet her. Okay. It's not fair because that's not his responsibility. But the only person affected in this situation is poor Minerva who anticipated us.I know I got every one of my personal items confiscated and that is no one's duty to work around but mine... and I tried! Just no cooperation really and I feel like she is a useless martyr. How hard is it to call someone? Or even call me when I asked him to during the day at work to tell me the status of our visitation (considering that was my only form of contact). Or even so I could get Minerva's number and go alone. Of course, that request was disregarded. This is why I don't really want to talk to anyone from the library anymore. Even if I'm not an 'important' member of your life any longer, at least a courtesy response would have been appropriate. (more than a sloppy facebook message at 11 when I WROTE I had work at 10 and would obviously not have gotten it. fucking genius really) Sorry I am ranting here, but I've been ignored so often by several people when I text/call even though I respond always and it's gotten to the point where every annoyance now elicits extreme anger. I guess I'm just upset because I thought we were unbelievably close friends at one point (all of us) harping on that idealistic idea of forever, and now while I don't expect everything to be the same, I am not even worth a 2 minute phone call.

Seriously, I don't really expect much of anything from friends and if you fail to even meet those standards, well good job ! ^0^

I wish I could write how angry this, as a cherry to the proverbial sundae of anger, has made me. There would be no friendliness in running into anyone again. Fuck little library meet up's too that are just fake and mean nothing. I am tired of being understanding! so FUCK YOUUUUUUU.

Watched Peter Pan 2 today also. It was depressing. Not a particularly great movie, but that end scene where Peter sees Wendy as a grown up really got to me...as dumb as that sounds. :( I guess because her 'time' was over and now she's an adult and I worry that that is happening to me too. Being an adult. Living a boring life. You know, my usual blog entry worries. I still feel upset by the movie. T^T boohoo~~

So, on brighter news, I am leaving for Africa on Friday! I am so happy! I'm waving goodbye to the US with my middle finger

teehee.

there is nothing i will miss here but my sometimes dysfunctional family. nothing else at all i assure you